Everytime when I looked at Hector’s facebook page and some of his friends took picture funny of him..How could he had fun without me and it just remind me of him and I had great of the moments the past. But still no talks I was been waiting for Hector talk to me. It take too long and I’m giving up I go to imed him but  I can’t I scares. Oh gosh I really really really miss him so much. Only Hector makes me so happy, smile , laugh, play around and things. It almost 7 months and still thinking and worried about Hector. :’(

I gotta move in new apt and will do first time sleep here and I’m alone and lay on my bed and looked at the glow stars. I started to thinking and crying already. I really really miss hector so badly I can’t stop. I wish hector live with me but it too late and we not talks much :(

First 2007, Hector and I don’t know each around together in middle school for 2 years. And We don’t talks to nothings. So 6 years later, My friends and I went to Franklin Mill Mall into Spencer store. I felt like different inside weird somethings I don’t know what it is.. I just looked around and saw quickly that guy and I know that his familiar someone? Did I met him already ? or what? He started look at me and fellow too and I back look at him. I tried talks him but I really shy. My friends gave to him of my number for texting. 2 days later Hector text me I was so surprise. WE talked everyday never stop. Then few week later I found that Hector and I was same middle school for 2 years and 8 grade graduation too.. Anyway We just stopped talks no more. Long story I could not stop look this picture. I do still love him so much and miss too.

It’s already 6 months.. Never forget what Hector said to me.. This month Hector and I should be relationship. But it’s failed and I started cried  a lots last night too My sister want to know what happen Hector and I between things. I told to her explain everything. Today this early  morning I went to doctor appointment for my eye it bother me too much and somethings wrong inside. Doctor found out that you had allegories I was like what? are you serious ? first time my eye has allgeories of what? and Doctor don’t know what kind you had allgeries but you should be carefully about that. I was pissing off. Then my 2 bestie Katie and Desiree and I talking on the oovoo imed about paints things and They dont want dark paints thing because Katie don’t want to be despressing of dark color things. And I told her I know you don’t want dark paints because you don’t want to remind of your brother Paul murder of his friends. I thinks I hurt katie’s felts but I’m not mean that I was not mood I always sad everyday never be happy but I felt I lost Hector. only I really need Hector so badly. I don’t need Joe or Nick or Anthony or other boys. Only Hector is perfect with me. It’s hard for me and I’m so sorry for millions times for everythings. Fuck My whole life really, really suck with my family and friends. I been thinking When I will move to new apt. I don’t think so I won’t change new life. But some poeple says it will do change new life. I was like I guess who’s know. I always count how many days I been missed Hector. :( I hope of some my friends who know me and don’t mad at me because i talked about Hector again. SORRY

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